Another Dream Come True

  God is so good to me. He is the best! 

    It has been one of many dreams for me to be the first to take Robyn (my bff) on her first Disney World trip. Remember, He knows the desires of your heart. 

MAY 2014

It was a trip planned in a month's time. I knew I couldn't on my own afford to take my family and Robyn to Disney World. God provided:) I want to thanks those involved in making this dream come true. God used you. YAY! 

We rode Expedition Everest 3x's! WHOOHOO!!!!

We were so excited to get to see family on our visit. What a blessing;)

      We wanted to leave this year for Mozambique. You know how it is...when God shows you something...you automatically get all hasty and are rippin' and ready. LOL He so knows us. He's like, " Hey kid, I got this!" 

             There are a few things I'd like to do before we go. I know that part of that includes spending a whole lot of time with our family and friends. 

  I've been asked a few times...well a lot of times..." When are ya'll leavin'?" The answer is," When God get's us ready." He is preparing not only us, but our family and friends as well. Preparing for missionary life is like whoa mayn. 

         Wanna pray for us?

 Here are a few things that have to happen:  

1.House Sold. Truck paid off. and we have one other debt.=DEBT paid off.  

2. We need the means to go. We have our Non-Profit fund set aside and are raising and saving the money to go. Our current amt in account is around $4,000. What will it take? $17,000-$20,000 for the first 3months. Sounds like a lot. We are moving and it's 3 of us. Includes: Travel. Water. Tuition for mission school for the three of us. and some supplies we will have to purchase after arrival. After that, the amount needed will go down...

3.We want to be able to help provide for the people we are going to help as well.( wouldn't that be awesome) 

DON'T forget to pray for our families. It won't be easy for them to see us leave. 

He renews our passion constantly. He never lets us forget where we are headed. WHOA! I get so excited:) Oh how He loves us all!

   How can I be excited about leaving....He makes me brave:) 

Here is OUR WEBSITE .

God is my Strong Tower. I 've been running, and when I feel weak...I start to pray aloud. I look to Him...my Strong Tower...standing about my weakness..I run to Him:)

OH MY! I have to share this. God has put things on my heart to share...and I did the other night..and the next day during Josh teaching...Josh spoke the exact same things...WOW> God has us connected. How romantic:) hehe 

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE 

:)

Pick Me Up Like a Paintbrush

  My soul is longing for Mozambique. I am bursting!! It's what lies there.... that awaits me.... I feel the pull from the depths of my soul. I long as if I belong...The call is loud. It booms. I am aware that some may not comprehend the depths from which I speak...it is from a place that I can hear...again.
  Where God has me now, this is where I will minister now. This place I am in...the soil is to have an imprint of His love wherever I go.
   My prayer is that I can only be as He wants me to be. I want to be dead to my selfish wants only to live fully in His presence...leaving behind something bigger than I could ever be. I want to leave behind a sense of peace...I want to be able to show pure love to everyone...Love is tangible...Love looks like something(Heidi Baker)...Love looks like Jesus.
  I am quite overwhelmed at times that God has chosen me to walk as Jesus did...among the poor and untouchable...and with just one touch of His love their lives will be changed forever. I am amazed for I deserve nothing but death. Yet He continues to pour into me life. I wish only to have it abundantly so that it may overflow into others...that I may become a river...no perhaps a mere stream that trickles down from His ocean...well really I want to be a river...lol bursting with life!!

   "What is this...why do you speak so differently?"
   I speak no differently than I always have. I am no longer afraid to become vulnerable as I always have been...for now I am more sure than ever that I am covered.
   God spoke to me about worship and warfare. Worship requires being humble before what/who we are worshiping. We must be lower than what/who we hold high. What we worship during this battle covers us. If you crouch down in battle(get down low) you are usually hidden by something greater than yourself. What/who are we esteeming higher than ourselves...what are we worshiping?
    What is covering you in battle?<----this is the question we must ask ourselves. It could be work, sports, tv, shopping, school, celebrities or well there are tons of things and people we could unknowingly esteem higher than ourselves..higher than what we were created to be. Worshipers....covered completely by the great King of Kings. The time we spend in worship (reading the Word, singing, praying, or simply listening) is so very important for our existence. God wants a relationship. Some call it quiet time...Some call it the "secret place" which I like very much. It is special for each individual person. God meets us there. He is so big:)
    I can honestly say that I was never happy walking off path. There is no greater joy than to be this alive! He is doing things as He promised...beyond what I could ever imagine.

 The tears that fall are now drops of love for I am so in love.
  I will go wherever He calls me.
 I am not afraid of death. Death cannot kill me.

This time I'm sharing 2 videos:) and I finally got our website up and running.
http://kingdomharvestintl.org

One of many areas in which Iris Global is ministering: I love the fact that these children are being equipped.
Phoebe's Story
CONGO
   

Close your eyes and listen.

EPIPHANY OF THE DAY

If you've read my blog over the past 2 days, you'll realize...I have changed this entry a bit.

   I keep feeling the need to explain our calling to people who ask all these questions that have the ability to stir doubt. When we feel doubt or insecurities or the need to defend ourselves...we should realize that we don't have to...God is our defender. I've began reading another book by Heidi Baker called, Birthing the Miraculous. The first chapter talks about Mary and her calling. WOW! I have known her story forever...but it has a whole new meaning. I felt a slam on my heart by the Holy Spirit that had the answer to all my wondering. DIE TO SELF. hmmm...that isn't an easy task. This is my new prayer....even at the gym when Susan is killin' me on the step..believe me..I-got-to-pray. So, there it is...my epiphany for the day.

   I've been working on our Facebook website. KHImissions Facebook Page 

     Our house is officially on the market!Here is the link:)

 Here is something cool...it has been about 6 almost 7 years since we began our journey in reaching our call. Josh felt led to name our ministry Kingdom Harvest International. We opened a church ministry for a few years. We are currently helping another ministry. I think it's pretty cool to think that God gave us the name before we even knew that we would be going out to Harvest School in Mozambique. WOW!
 
     I cannot express the pull on my heart to "go". Each day is another day closer.
                          I know that to some it seems like such a big task. It is! God can make a way.

HERE IS A SONG AND SOME LYRICS: LISTEN:) You WILL be blessed.

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
[x6]

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

Prancer:)

  Once again I have to share these photos. These are of Prancer. He is already spoiled...see his big bed..hehe...and He has a lady friend:) Miss Alice.
  Miss Alice is a pleasantly plump kitty:) and she likes to talk just like he does.
  Just a quick share:) Another blessing:)

Stop Crying...It's Gonna Be Alright.

   The last baby is gone...my Jag. If I talk about it or even say his lil name I swell with tears. I love him so much. I know he is with a very loving sweet person which really does give me a bit of peace. Sacrifice...it isn't easy...nor is it suppose to be really...or else it wouldn't be a sacrifice at all. All I can do is ask that God fill that little precious spot.
   Here he is at his new home...on his new bed:) I want to grab him up so bad...but such a precious person has been chosen to care for him. I know why I met her now. Amazing.

       Months from now, I will hold precious orphans, widows, broken and those in deep poverty in which I have never experienced or seen face to face...they will be before me...and I will use the love of God to love them deeply. Some people don't know they are loved. Now...that is sad.

        Years from now, I will see what God has planned. All of His promises are real. 

I have been asked several time, "What if you are miserable?" I could answer in several ways.

First, there may be days that I feel not so top notch...but I could feel that way anywhere. Ya know what else...God gave me a husband...and we lift each other up:) Second, how could I be more miserable than the ones we are going to.... Third, it's surreal to know that you know..."this is what you were made for"...Another and the biggest to me...is FAITH. 

       You never really know what or who your faith is in until it is tested...

for example:If your father has several heart attacks and has died...and God restored His life to where you are able to call him and talk with him...and hug him.  OR Your marriage has failed. Your family is broken. You cry at night of loneliness and plea to God for answers...Out of the darkness appears light...and brilliantly your marriage and family is restored to a point beyond what you would have ever thought it would be...your marriage is unbreakable and your family is whole. OR You were diagnosed with two autoimmune disorders and another condition that would surely take away the good quality of life you've been living or even will take your life. BUT you decided that you were not defeated and had faith in the promises of God and were completely healed...now you don't worry anymore about watching your child grow up...

     You see all of the above: those situations were me. Faith in the Word...in the promises of God...believing and knowing with all that I am that He is the King of EVERYTHING! WHOOOOOOOHOOOOO! I serve a MIGHTY GOD! Nothing makes me want to dance more than this...:) 

     

     Dear Heavenly Father...most precious of all...

Take my heart and seal it for Thy courts above. Pour into me and fill every crevice with You. I want a relationship with You like no other. Take away the pain of whoever may be reading this and need You more. Fill them with Your precious love that is like no other. Let them feel Your presence. Breathe life. Let Your Holy Spirit surround the broken and ashamed as this prayer is read and prayed. Take us all to where You desire us to be. May we not hesitate to surrender to Your perfect will for our lives. May we walk by faith. I love You, God, more than anything. Above all You reign. You amaze me. You, Father, are a perfect Father. 

    Thank You for hearing me...for hearing us...in the precious name of Your great sacrifice, Jesus, I pray...we pray...Amen.

       

     

No Room for Doubt

  God never ceases to amaze me...

    There have been days that I've felt overwhelmed by the release of the things that I have thought to be so precious...that I have counted as super important in my life. I have felt overwhelmed by the great changes occurring around me. There are days that tears fall uncontrollably. But...Do you know what is amazing? All of these changes...they are molding me....and my family. We are being transformed. Although we face adversity...God is there...He is here. He defends us. He brings us joy unspeakable inside our hearts.
  We are comforted.
    I am amazed. God has hand-picked and sent people our way to bless us. I'm not sure they are even aware. This is what I mean:We are selling our treasures...we are giving up our precious family pets...BUT God has sent the most precious people to care for them. Each family has been such an encouragement to our lives. I am so overwhelmed by His love. Our paths have crossed for a greater purpose.

Raleigh @ his new home w/his new bffs.

Luna & Lynka were able to be taken home together. YAY! Look how happy they are:)

   So...all I can say is...I can see God in all of this...and in the people He has sent our way...even those who have bought items from us.

  You see...we are pouring ourselves out...only to be filled by His love. The only possible way to love others the way He loves us...

What if we all walked around representing God's love....

 
 
 

THE CALL

I figure I better go ahead and blog the news.

  Both Josh and I have been praying for the same thing...without the other knowing. We asked God to show us what our main purpose was...what He wanted for our lives.
   Keep up with me here...
   Most of my life, I've felt that I was suppose to go to Africa. As a youth, I felt pulled towards youth and missions. I had no idea that it would all be on purpose...In fact, about 3 weeks ago I was riding in my car, contemplating...talking to God about why I kept on holding on the the thought of Africa.
   God is so cool.
   Josh had been thinking the exact same thoughts as me...whoa right:) Yeah, we are one:) He had no idea what I'd been praying about...or the thoughts I'd been thinking...or the pull on my heart. I mentioned to him how I wanted to help children overseas in places like India, Africa, Asia, etc...He responded with, " Let's go! I'm ready!" I didn't expect that...I sat on the couch and tears began to stream down my face. I thought, " Am I willing to give up everything to help the helpless?" I felt very humbled. The thought of giving up my precious cats ( I am aware some do not understand, but think of something very precious to you) made me want to shout, "NO!" I thought of how Jesus was such a great sacrifice...
   Overnight, God transformed my heart even more. He said, " You were made for this."  I could actually feel the Potter (God) molding me. He was pressing me down into a puddle of clay-what seems like a mess. I felt like my heart was being melted down. Now, He is molding me into what I am to become. WOW! HA!
   Josh and I already love each other, but I can see how God has instantly strengthened us even more. Super cool! We look back on our lives, and we can see how everything was planned perfectly to prepare us for such a time as this...-every dream...every vision...every prophetic word spoken over our lives both together and individually throughout our lives...EVERYTHING lines up...
   We have never been in such strong agreement on one thing...We have never felt so strongly..
SO WHAT NOW:
  We are in preparation. We are selling pretty much everything. There are things we are selling now..and things we will sell closer to time to leave...(I'll get to that) Our house is for sale, too. We do not plan to quit our jobs or sell our vehicles until right before we leave.
  WHERE WHAAA?
   First, we 3 will attend a mission school in Mozambique(AFRICA). The school will last approximately 3 months.  Afterwards, we will then go into long-term missions. We will be assigned, and transfer from Mozambique to wherever God sends. This is our lifes' mission.
   WHEN?
   We aren't exactly sure...could be this year or next year. Whenever God has everything in order, we will go.
I am going to start a newsletter. If you are interested, shoot me your mailing address:)
    I will try my best to keep everybody updated.
Feel free to pray for us:) AND Please, PRAY FOR OUR FAMILIES.
We love you all.

Sacrifice

    There is something stirring in mine and Josh's souls. I can't wait to share with you all. I will say that we are purposely paying off all of our debt...all of it. This includes our home. In order for us to move forward with what God has planned for our lives, this is necessary. We are not completely ready to reveal all details, but I will post about it soon.

    I am currently going to the gym. It's time for me to get serious about getting fit.
    We will be finding new homes for our beloved pets. I am very very sad about giving up my sweet furry kids. It is a must that I find them the right homes...I need people who will love and cherish them. I have 2 cats...fairly young about 1-2 years old, and a kitten who was born Sept 9. These babies must be inside only pets, and treated with respect and love. I do not like declawing.
   Also, we have 2 beautiful dogs. They MUST go to homes that understand their breeds. (Siberian Husky and a Malamute/Shepherd) They were both rescues, and we want to keep them safe. They require an at least 5ft-6ft fenced in area...the fence cannot be chain link...they climb...and remember jump...once they are out...good luck catching them. In Summer, they require a pool and plenty shade. They cannot be with small pets. The big boy cannot be with other male pets and must be acclimated to other animals. All of these pets are great with children.
   I will also be selling my fish tanks. I have a 55 gallon with stand and cover, 29 gallon with stand and cover, and a smaller 10 gallon alone.
  Giving up all of these things is very hard for me and my family. I have cried quite a lot, and am sure it will continue. They are not all sad tears. I am overwhelmed.

There is a greater commission on our lives.

Love is Sacrifice...
1 Corinthians 13

Close your eyes the first time you listen(so you can really listen). Listen to it a second time with eyes open:)