There is Always More

 


There seems to be no better time to blog than when you in deep thought. HA!

     Whoa dude! What's going on? What is God doing? What am I doing? LOL Do you ever feel like that...?

     If you don't already know, I opened my own hair salon. Both Josh and I work in the same building. No, he doesn't do hair or nails. haha. He has another job. We both once again have gone out on faith. We are self-employed. God has put us in a place where we will be able to go and come from the mission field.... I guess...lol The more I say yes to God...the more I seem not so sure of myself or at least of my plans. lol
    I've been fixin' up the building we are in...painting and making plans. It's exciting to make plans and watch them come true.
   I have said," Boy, life changes drastically every five years."...meaning that from 5 years to 5 years my life seems so different. Now, I guess I can say from year to year. hahahhaaaa! One of the things I learned in Nepal is...if things seem not so perfect or don't go as planned...just laugh. Laugh out loud...maybe at the oddness of the situation, at yourself, or maybe just laugh in the face of old satan. Produce joy. Let is seep from your soul.

   Every time I get alone with God since returning from Nepal...I weep. I cannot stop. I feel pulled to my knees. I feel like I'm being emptied and filled all at the same time. He pulls down all my shields. Yes. I am not perfect. I have a shield up...and I think I am figuring out what it is........right.....now....
   We step out in faith. We trust in God completely. We GO! Then, when things don't turn out exactly how we planned them and talked about...we feel like a failure. People begin to ask questions...they don't mean to make us feel worse...but the questions do...the comments do...we feel like God gave us a chance to trust Him, but we failed Him. We failed at our purpose...it must be the end. It's over.
    BUT....
                 that is a lie. ha!
   There is so much more to God. God didn't create us for that "one big thing" we think we are waiting to happen. Stepping out in faith was the right thing to do. We must lift our heads to look into His beautiful eyes. There is no need to feel ashamed. We are children of the mighty King! Stepping out in faith on His command and without fear is the right thing to do. We must continue to trust Him completely. Fear....do we live in fear to shield ourselves from pain? Who are we? We are nothing without Him. Once we grasp that...there is no reason to live in fear of failure or fear of rejection.
  He has purposed so much for us...and made us for so much purpose. I mean...look at how complicated our bodies are...seriously..how can we think it's all for just that "one big thing". Yes..we are created for something big alright. God's purpose. It's huge! How can we minimize it into one thing. He is so much bigger than that....
      So if you feel rejected or like a failure....let down your shield and let him engulf you in His love. Hey! You my friend are not alone. I'm talking to myself here.
  So let's do it!  Let's move forward together!.. Knowing...there is more to all of this than we yet know....so..."to infinity and beyond!" hahaha!
 Here's to stepping out in faith and trusting God! (high five) hahahaha!!!