There is Always More

 


There seems to be no better time to blog than when you in deep thought. HA!

     Whoa dude! What's going on? What is God doing? What am I doing? LOL Do you ever feel like that...?

     If you don't already know, I opened my own hair salon. Both Josh and I work in the same building. No, he doesn't do hair or nails. haha. He has another job. We both once again have gone out on faith. We are self-employed. God has put us in a place where we will be able to go and come from the mission field.... I guess...lol The more I say yes to God...the more I seem not so sure of myself or at least of my plans. lol
    I've been fixin' up the building we are in...painting and making plans. It's exciting to make plans and watch them come true.
   I have said," Boy, life changes drastically every five years."...meaning that from 5 years to 5 years my life seems so different. Now, I guess I can say from year to year. hahahhaaaa! One of the things I learned in Nepal is...if things seem not so perfect or don't go as planned...just laugh. Laugh out loud...maybe at the oddness of the situation, at yourself, or maybe just laugh in the face of old satan. Produce joy. Let is seep from your soul.

   Every time I get alone with God since returning from Nepal...I weep. I cannot stop. I feel pulled to my knees. I feel like I'm being emptied and filled all at the same time. He pulls down all my shields. Yes. I am not perfect. I have a shield up...and I think I am figuring out what it is........right.....now....
   We step out in faith. We trust in God completely. We GO! Then, when things don't turn out exactly how we planned them and talked about...we feel like a failure. People begin to ask questions...they don't mean to make us feel worse...but the questions do...the comments do...we feel like God gave us a chance to trust Him, but we failed Him. We failed at our purpose...it must be the end. It's over.
    BUT....
                 that is a lie. ha!
   There is so much more to God. God didn't create us for that "one big thing" we think we are waiting to happen. Stepping out in faith was the right thing to do. We must lift our heads to look into His beautiful eyes. There is no need to feel ashamed. We are children of the mighty King! Stepping out in faith on His command and without fear is the right thing to do. We must continue to trust Him completely. Fear....do we live in fear to shield ourselves from pain? Who are we? We are nothing without Him. Once we grasp that...there is no reason to live in fear of failure or fear of rejection.
  He has purposed so much for us...and made us for so much purpose. I mean...look at how complicated our bodies are...seriously..how can we think it's all for just that "one big thing". Yes..we are created for something big alright. God's purpose. It's huge! How can we minimize it into one thing. He is so much bigger than that....
      So if you feel rejected or like a failure....let down your shield and let him engulf you in His love. Hey! You my friend are not alone. I'm talking to myself here.
  So let's do it!  Let's move forward together!.. Knowing...there is more to all of this than we yet know....so..."to infinity and beyond!" hahaha!
 Here's to stepping out in faith and trusting God! (high five) hahahaha!!!

Up the Mountain

  Where should I start today....

oh yeah...

   We got in touch with Mountain Child Guest House, moved, and stayed there a couple nights. They were very friendly. The house is located behind a zoo. It was a neat thing...we kept the windows open, and you could hear the animals.
   Through our friendship with Shanda, we
met Clem and Jenny Chen. They opened the doors for us to help at Banquet House. Banquet House feeds and ministers to the needy ,and they have church there. I got my share of squats in while washing dishes. Oh what an honor:) There were less ladies than men. One lady sang and sang. She also prayed for me. Seated beside her was another sweet soul who wouldn't let my arm go. We couldn't understand each other, but we spoke as if we did. The language of love is universal. These ladies face so much hardship, yet they remember to love.
  We also met other missionaries at BH. Amongst them,we met Heather. If you have been around me enough, you have heard her name a few times. We struck up a nice to meet you conversation and exchanged numbers. She mentioned that she lived in the same place as another American missionary who was married to a Nepali missionary...in case we needed anything.
   (I'm having to leave out some things in the blog. It would be a book if I left in every detail.)

  We decided we needed a more appropriate place for us to stay. My stomach wasn't taking the new yummies very well...diarrhea became the norm. <---this is real people lol. We moved again to a "hotel" type place. The people there were so helpful. We were comfortable there, and we danced in the bedroom right after we got in...lol I laugh now thinking about it. There was even a friendly kitty:)

    They had a restaurant, and we got free breakfast. I wanted to feel pretty ( for real) so I got ready that night, and we went to supper at the restaurant. We all ordered pasta. Josh decided he wanted the dish with spinach. Spinach happens to be one of his favs.
   The next day, Josh was nauseous and violently vomiting.  If you know Josh well enough, then you know he is a man who lives by faith for everything....including health. The next day, We all laid in bed with tears . We fought with our faith and prayed. Josh was in the most pain he had ever been in in his life. It was difficult to see this man I love who lived with all his heart in such strong faith like this...BUT God is faithful. We decided it was time to ask for help.This day was a strike day. Which happens often in Nepal...and also means no taxis. The staff was eager to help us, and called the ambulance. Josh road alone to the hospital. Natalie and I made our way there.
  We chose to use the Nepali hospital, because it is significantly cheaper than the British hospital. I called Heather, and she made her way on her scooter to meet us. I am so grateful for her. When we got there, Josh was on the bed in the ER...nothing like the ERs in the states. Folks would freak out if they could see. I trusted God would take care of everything. Once Josh was laid and on the bed and boom...another earthquake. I went inside, and noticed that Josh's lips were beginning to turn blue. I decided I would not be afraid. God is faithful. In the end, Josh recovered. Heather being at our side was a Godsend. I'm pretty sure it helped Natalie a whole lot. My little girl is brave.
  We ended up meeting Heather's housemates,Michael and Holly. They along with Heather spent many hours helping us look for a place to live...to no avail. We are forever appreciative. The time we spent with them blessed us immensely.
  I ended up going online and finding a real estate agent. We moved again. The rent was good and the place was furnished...which was rare. I ran a fever the first night,so Heather came over and brought pizza for us. We love her;) hehe A Korean man lived above us and the landlord family lived above him. They were all so friendly. 

 The gas smell from the water heater became overwhelming...I was at my bottom...we decided to search for another place. Between moving and being sick, I felt exhausted emotionally. We were determined to keep going. The daughter of the family spoke English very well. I was in tears when I told her that we were leaving. I felt ashamed of my weakness. This is normal life for them...I was at a low. Yet, God is faithful.

   Remember Cynthia and Kevin? We had spent a day with Cynthia looking for a place to live, and remembered a place we turned down on account of the cost. We decided to stay there after all. We would be further from our friends Shanda and Heather, but only a 5 minute walk to Cynthia. We moved again.
   Almost everyday after that we spent with Cynthia. Her southern accent was comforting, and we found out that we had lots in common. She showed us how to get to the nearest grocery stores, and where some good food was located. There I could go out and by produce and things like that...the place was already furnished so we didn't have to buy pots and pans.
   She and Kevin have 2 Nepali girls who live with them. They became very close with us all. Natalie seemed super happy to have friends to play with...and I was glad.

   Kevin and Cynthia invited us to go to the "slums" with them to a church where they did a Bible club with kids. We went a couple times. The children worshipped and listen to Bible stories. It was so good. I can see God smiling about that...:)  

 The second time we went, we walked a different way. We saw how these children lived. It broke our hearts. I felt helpless...how could I help them all...just our little family....help all these people. I realized what it means to truly be nothing at all without God. I can't help them by myself, but God can make a way. In places like this, mother's try and give their children to you in order for them to receive care. They love their children so very much, and as a mother it wrenches my heart to imagine how they must feel.

  Josh was ready to get out and do something about all this....He went downstairs at our apartment and spoke with the manager. He asked about where some more needy people were that we could help. The manager got excited. He volunteered to help us help people.
  We rented a car and ventured up to a village that he told us about...ventured....lol What a bumpy ride...it makes me laugh out loud thinking about it. We laughed on the ride, too. It was like riding in a little car driven by Dale Earnhart, Jr. except we were on the side of a mountain. We would get stuck, and we would all giggle. I silently prayed each time, and we got unstuck every time.

  When we got to the village, we met the village "owner" or as we think "mayor". The village was up in the clouds and some of the families were without shelter due to the earthquake. The mayor was such a sweet man. He showed us what use to be his home. He explained that he left his home 2 minutes before the quake. Both his wife and children were killed. I was holding back tears.
  We met with a group of men from the village...I reckon they were like the head men. Raj (the apartment manager) was our interpreter. They seemed suspicious of our wanting to help, but Raj assured them we were ok people.
   On the way back down the mountain, we ate trout. It was super good. ha
  Raj helped us arrange to supply tin to 21 families. They combine the tin and bamboo to create shelters/homes. The next time up the mountain we rented a jeep which is much like what we call land rover type vehicles. Heather went with us to deliver the tin. It was a more fun ride this time. I know my bottom went up 2 feet at least off the seat one time when we hit a bump. lol

Trout

   Do you see what God did? We met amazing people, and he guided us to where He wanted us. I still am so amazed. This is why we shouldn't worry. I mean...we went to Nepal knowing not one person...and he supplied friends...family really...and he lead us to a person willing to help us help others.
    Why did we come home? Well...God never told us a time frame. We had to decide whether or not to use the money we had to live there longer or shelter 21 families. We came not back home...but forward home. Transitioning from the mission field to what you knew before isn't rose petals....or cotton fields lol We are changed forever.
     What are we doing now?
   We are working jobs, and sort of starting over...but we aren't. We went to well...I guess you could say "boot camp" in Nepal to get ready for what is next. We desire to go back to Nepal for a short term trip. We are praying that God shows us where and what...
   Kingdom Harvest International wasn't an accidental name. I fully believe that God gave Josh the name in 2009 for such a time as this.
   There is so much more to this story, but I hope this answers some of your questions. I tried not to drag it out to much:)
Thank you to those who prayed and helped financially on this trip.
   Pray with us won't you.
   Pray for our precious friends on the field. These are our family more than our friends.
   Pray for Nepal.

  We love all of ya'll:) 


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Breaking the Old Mold

  WOW. This year has been amazing. I admit that it ain't been easy. Change is normally accompanied by some sort of discomfort for our flesh. Many of you are reading this awaiting a story from Nepal. I'm going to try and share bit by bit.
  I haven't blogged in a while, because I needed time to be smoothed in some places. I also needed to learn that it was okay to be different than who I was before. I'd say that when we got back, I was sort of discombobulated.<-----must be a word...spell check didn't pick it up :) I needed time to take it all in...
   I am so grateful to the people God place into our lives who stayed patient after our return to the states. Thank you.
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  I want to be frank. When we came back to the states, I felt lost....or something else...

 When we first arrived in Nepal, it was very difficult. There was nothing that could have prepared us for what we faced. No person can describe to you what it's like to go to Nepal the way we did....BUT God is faithful.




  After a whole lot of flying, we arrived in Kathmandu.We were bombarded by people wanting to carry our baggage for us for money. We found our man with a sign that said our name. I had arranged a place for us to stay by using Trip Advisor. ha! They had a driver meet us. As we left the airport, we entered into another world....culture shock baby! VROOOM! all over the road. The Nepali drivers seem to be vrooming ALL over the road. Trust me though...they know what they are doing, and actually are quite courteous.
  Finally, we arrived at our destination. The room wasn't so bad. We didn't know anybody at the time or any language...so we went to bed hungry. This was the first time I felt the shock. Natalie was hungry, and I felt awful. I kept thinking, " what in the world did we do"...I also thought about all the people that had children starving everyday. I reminded myself that God is faithful. I crawled in bed with Natalie, and we both silently cried ourselves to sleep. wow....talk about humbled.
   We were awakened at 4am by gonging, ringing, chanting, and horn blowing. We didn't realize that we booked our room in a temple courtyard...this went on for 2 hours. Eventually, we went to the upper floor, and the sweet Nepalis fixed us some breakfast. I hardly had an appetite, but I forced some food down.
    Back in our room, I sat on the window seal with the window wide open. It was sort of damp and dreary due the the rain. On the courtyard floor, there were a few Red Cross of China tents. I watched a little boy go over his school work with his mother. I could tell she asked him a question, and he got it right. He was smiling so big. I quickly realized I was smiling,too. I found a lot of joy watching the children play in that courtyard.

       Just one night and a half day in Nepal had stripped us of every ounce of pride. It didn't feel great, but God is faithful. Natalie was singing, and encouraging her daddy and me. She was shining her light.

    11am.: our first experience with an earthquake. I could see from our upstairs window how the Nepali people ran outside with excitement and fear. It was loud like the sound of jets breaking the sound barrier...but you could feel it.
    Although the power isn't on 24 hours, the place we stayed had wifi. Right after the quake, I heard a ding on my ipod. I checked it. It was from a woman named Cynthia. She said God had put us on her heart that morning. I sobbed and cheered. Turns out we have one mutual Facebook friend, and neither of us can figure out how we know them... Anyway, her husband,Kevin, happened to be close by, and they quickly offered to help us get on our feet.
    One week before heading to Nepal, a friend mentioned that a hometown girl named Shanda was in Nepal. I contacted her. The very first morning, after her classes, she found her way to us.
    We ventured down to the courtyard near the entrance and waited. Almost at the exact same time, Shanda and Kevin show up. God is faithful. We had South Georgians gathered right there LOL It was crazy I tell ya. We all hugged and swapped information. It was so great...you have no idea...or maybe you do. God is faithful.
    We spent the rest of the day with Shanda. She took us all over. She may have a small frame, but her heart is so big. One might say it's like our Heavenly Father's. She guided us in getting food, money, and a cell phone. She took us to meet her friends and "family" in Nepal. Her heart is so beautifully open to love. We even learned to ask a person if we could pray for them in Nepali from her. The whole entire time...I thought..."wow...God...I can't believe this is happening." God gave us help in the form of a person from our own hometown who we never even knew...whoa.
    Back at the temple courtyard...lol...we went back up, and ate our first round of traditional Nepali food. I still had no appetite, but the food was served with love by a beautiful Nepali woman...and after a full day...my heart felt warm.



to be continued....
 
 

I'm Awake!

    There are no words to describe all of what I feel inside at this time. There are not enough words to describe what God has done for me and my family. Oh how and why would He choose to send us.
    Every life counts. We are not insignificant. 
                                           You are not insignificant.
    TRUST. 
            So easy to say...but do you? Do you trust God? What has He placed on the inside of you? It is like an explosion inside of you that you have to let out! It's dying to escape. Do not let it die! Let it out! Let the Holy Spirit swarm up and out. Trust. Let God lead you. Trust. Trust. Trust. He is saying, "trust me."
    So much has happened in a weeks time. I cannot share every detail. I hope everybody can understand. I will share that soon the appointed time is approaching. We trust His perfect will for our lives. Pray for us.
    May all your fears be gone! Step out and cross the bridge to destiny! Be no longer a slave to fear! You were made to overcome. You have been given dominion. Rise up and awaken. Be amazed! WHOOHOOOO!
 We will not be sharing everything on social media as I hope you can understand why. If you'd like to know more about the mission set before us, email us your mailing address. We will keep you updated:) 
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No matter what...We were created to endure! Rise up and wake up lovers!
"Your praise will ever be on my lips!" We were made to worship!


     

Heart Ache

     It's been almost a year to the exact date of when God spoke to mine and Josh's hearts concerning the mission field. We all want to know our life's purpose. I sometimes think that God doesn't reveal it to us in it's entirety at once, because not only would we grow impatient... it would overwhelm us. He is super smart you know.

     Life has been going great for our family. We've been working at our jobs, and homeschooling, and Natalie's been dancing, and we've even gotten one of our cats back that we gave away. (Don't let the run on sentence get to you. I like it.) Yes, we got one back. The fellow that was just a wee one when we parted is now back with us.:) All of these things make for a comfortable life.
      Let me tell you this...I am very happy. I have no complaints about my life. I am blessed so very much. I am taking it all in and enjoying what I have...I'm enjoying this life.
     The thing is.....

            "I feel like I'm dying."  I know what God has for my life. Maybe not all of it, but a portion. My heart aches and yearns so much to reach the point in the path that He has shown me. Sometimes, I want to scream or cry out!!! It's embedded inside of me. All of His love is embedded inside of me for these orphan and poor children who do not know they are loved, and the only opportunity for them to know love is me, or my husband, or my daughter. I cannot explain it all except that God has placed this yearning in my heart.
       The yearning to live fearless. AHHHH! The more I know God my Father, the more I yearn for those children to know they have a Father who loves them. The more I yearn to tell the homeless blind lady on the side of a dirt street who has no name....I love you...God loves you....You are worth being loved. It's so overwhelming...I cannot speak enough words to explain it all.

    I said it out loud once. "I feel like I'm dying." A wise special friend of ours said, "You are."
    Just now....ha! I realize, I was feeling blah. I felt like everything was at a stand still....but I'm dying:) Why a smiley face? The more I die to myself, the more He can love through me. When people see me, I want them to see Him.
     OHHHHHH!! I yearn and ache so bad to see Mozambique, to see Nepal...to reach out...to take action..and GO!!!!

     Everyone always asks about us and our mission. I hope this helps you understand. God has already spoken aloud, Nepal. We are just waiting for the GO button to be pressed.
   Meanwhile, Josh currently teaches a Bible class at Word of Life Training Center. There, we minister to all sorts of folks inside and outside the training center.:)


   God loves you more than you can imagine. More than you can imagine...
 I'm so glad He loves with a strong steady heart. Thank You Father. I trust You.

   

Another Dream Come True

  God is so good to me. He is the best! 

    It has been one of many dreams for me to be the first to take Robyn (my bff) on her first Disney World trip. Remember, He knows the desires of your heart. 

MAY 2014

It was a trip planned in a month's time. I knew I couldn't on my own afford to take my family and Robyn to Disney World. God provided:) I want to thanks those involved in making this dream come true. God used you. YAY! 

We rode Expedition Everest 3x's! WHOOHOO!!!!

We were so excited to get to see family on our visit. What a blessing;)

      We wanted to leave this year for Mozambique. You know how it is...when God shows you something...you automatically get all hasty and are rippin' and ready. LOL He so knows us. He's like, " Hey kid, I got this!" 

             There are a few things I'd like to do before we go. I know that part of that includes spending a whole lot of time with our family and friends. 

  I've been asked a few times...well a lot of times..." When are ya'll leavin'?" The answer is," When God get's us ready." He is preparing not only us, but our family and friends as well. Preparing for missionary life is like whoa mayn. 

         Wanna pray for us?

 Here are a few things that have to happen:  

1.House Sold. Truck paid off. and we have one other debt.=DEBT paid off.  

2. We need the means to go. We have our Non-Profit fund set aside and are raising and saving the money to go. Our current amt in account is around $4,000. What will it take? $17,000-$20,000 for the first 3months. Sounds like a lot. We are moving and it's 3 of us. Includes: Travel. Water. Tuition for mission school for the three of us. and some supplies we will have to purchase after arrival. After that, the amount needed will go down...

3.We want to be able to help provide for the people we are going to help as well.( wouldn't that be awesome) 

DON'T forget to pray for our families. It won't be easy for them to see us leave. 

He renews our passion constantly. He never lets us forget where we are headed. WHOA! I get so excited:) Oh how He loves us all!

   How can I be excited about leaving....He makes me brave:) 

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God is my Strong Tower. I 've been running, and when I feel weak...I start to pray aloud. I look to Him...my Strong Tower...standing about my weakness..I run to Him:)

OH MY! I have to share this. God has put things on my heart to share...and I did the other night..and the next day during Josh teaching...Josh spoke the exact same things...WOW> God has us connected. How romantic:) hehe 

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE 

:)

Pick Me Up Like a Paintbrush

  My soul is longing for Mozambique. I am bursting!! It's what lies there.... that awaits me.... I feel the pull from the depths of my soul. I long as if I belong...The call is loud. It booms. I am aware that some may not comprehend the depths from which I speak...it is from a place that I can hear...again.
  Where God has me now, this is where I will minister now. This place I am in...the soil is to have an imprint of His love wherever I go.
   My prayer is that I can only be as He wants me to be. I want to be dead to my selfish wants only to live fully in His presence...leaving behind something bigger than I could ever be. I want to leave behind a sense of peace...I want to be able to show pure love to everyone...Love is tangible...Love looks like something(Heidi Baker)...Love looks like Jesus.
  I am quite overwhelmed at times that God has chosen me to walk as Jesus did...among the poor and untouchable...and with just one touch of His love their lives will be changed forever. I am amazed for I deserve nothing but death. Yet He continues to pour into me life. I wish only to have it abundantly so that it may overflow into others...that I may become a river...no perhaps a mere stream that trickles down from His ocean...well really I want to be a river...lol bursting with life!!

   "What is this...why do you speak so differently?"
   I speak no differently than I always have. I am no longer afraid to become vulnerable as I always have been...for now I am more sure than ever that I am covered.
   God spoke to me about worship and warfare. Worship requires being humble before what/who we are worshiping. We must be lower than what/who we hold high. What we worship during this battle covers us. If you crouch down in battle(get down low) you are usually hidden by something greater than yourself. What/who are we esteeming higher than ourselves...what are we worshiping?
    What is covering you in battle?<----this is the question we must ask ourselves. It could be work, sports, tv, shopping, school, celebrities or well there are tons of things and people we could unknowingly esteem higher than ourselves..higher than what we were created to be. Worshipers....covered completely by the great King of Kings. The time we spend in worship (reading the Word, singing, praying, or simply listening) is so very important for our existence. God wants a relationship. Some call it quiet time...Some call it the "secret place" which I like very much. It is special for each individual person. God meets us there. He is so big:)
    I can honestly say that I was never happy walking off path. There is no greater joy than to be this alive! He is doing things as He promised...beyond what I could ever imagine.

 The tears that fall are now drops of love for I am so in love.
  I will go wherever He calls me.
 I am not afraid of death. Death cannot kill me.

This time I'm sharing 2 videos:) and I finally got our website up and running.
http://kingdomharvestintl.org

One of many areas in which Iris Global is ministering: I love the fact that these children are being equipped.
Phoebe's Story
CONGO
   

Close your eyes and listen.

EPIPHANY OF THE DAY

If you've read my blog over the past 2 days, you'll realize...I have changed this entry a bit.

   I keep feeling the need to explain our calling to people who ask all these questions that have the ability to stir doubt. When we feel doubt or insecurities or the need to defend ourselves...we should realize that we don't have to...God is our defender. I've began reading another book by Heidi Baker called, Birthing the Miraculous. The first chapter talks about Mary and her calling. WOW! I have known her story forever...but it has a whole new meaning. I felt a slam on my heart by the Holy Spirit that had the answer to all my wondering. DIE TO SELF. hmmm...that isn't an easy task. This is my new prayer....even at the gym when Susan is killin' me on the step..believe me..I-got-to-pray. So, there it is...my epiphany for the day.

   I've been working on our Facebook website. KHImissions Facebook Page 

     Our house is officially on the market!Here is the link:)

 Here is something cool...it has been about 6 almost 7 years since we began our journey in reaching our call. Josh felt led to name our ministry Kingdom Harvest International. We opened a church ministry for a few years. We are currently helping another ministry. I think it's pretty cool to think that God gave us the name before we even knew that we would be going out to Harvest School in Mozambique. WOW!
 
     I cannot express the pull on my heart to "go". Each day is another day closer.
                          I know that to some it seems like such a big task. It is! God can make a way.

HERE IS A SONG AND SOME LYRICS: LISTEN:) You WILL be blessed.

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
[x6]

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

Prancer:)

  Once again I have to share these photos. These are of Prancer. He is already spoiled...see his big bed..hehe...and He has a lady friend:) Miss Alice.
  Miss Alice is a pleasantly plump kitty:) and she likes to talk just like he does.
  Just a quick share:) Another blessing:)

Stop Crying...It's Gonna Be Alright.

   The last baby is gone...my Jag. If I talk about it or even say his lil name I swell with tears. I love him so much. I know he is with a very loving sweet person which really does give me a bit of peace. Sacrifice...it isn't easy...nor is it suppose to be really...or else it wouldn't be a sacrifice at all. All I can do is ask that God fill that little precious spot.
   Here he is at his new home...on his new bed:) I want to grab him up so bad...but such a precious person has been chosen to care for him. I know why I met her now. Amazing.

       Months from now, I will hold precious orphans, widows, broken and those in deep poverty in which I have never experienced or seen face to face...they will be before me...and I will use the love of God to love them deeply. Some people don't know they are loved. Now...that is sad.

        Years from now, I will see what God has planned. All of His promises are real. 

I have been asked several time, "What if you are miserable?" I could answer in several ways.

First, there may be days that I feel not so top notch...but I could feel that way anywhere. Ya know what else...God gave me a husband...and we lift each other up:) Second, how could I be more miserable than the ones we are going to.... Third, it's surreal to know that you know..."this is what you were made for"...Another and the biggest to me...is FAITH. 

       You never really know what or who your faith is in until it is tested...

for example:If your father has several heart attacks and has died...and God restored His life to where you are able to call him and talk with him...and hug him.  OR Your marriage has failed. Your family is broken. You cry at night of loneliness and plea to God for answers...Out of the darkness appears light...and brilliantly your marriage and family is restored to a point beyond what you would have ever thought it would be...your marriage is unbreakable and your family is whole. OR You were diagnosed with two autoimmune disorders and another condition that would surely take away the good quality of life you've been living or even will take your life. BUT you decided that you were not defeated and had faith in the promises of God and were completely healed...now you don't worry anymore about watching your child grow up...

     You see all of the above: those situations were me. Faith in the Word...in the promises of God...believing and knowing with all that I am that He is the King of EVERYTHING! WHOOOOOOOHOOOOO! I serve a MIGHTY GOD! Nothing makes me want to dance more than this...:) 

     

     Dear Heavenly Father...most precious of all...

Take my heart and seal it for Thy courts above. Pour into me and fill every crevice with You. I want a relationship with You like no other. Take away the pain of whoever may be reading this and need You more. Fill them with Your precious love that is like no other. Let them feel Your presence. Breathe life. Let Your Holy Spirit surround the broken and ashamed as this prayer is read and prayed. Take us all to where You desire us to be. May we not hesitate to surrender to Your perfect will for our lives. May we walk by faith. I love You, God, more than anything. Above all You reign. You amaze me. You, Father, are a perfect Father. 

    Thank You for hearing me...for hearing us...in the precious name of Your great sacrifice, Jesus, I pray...we pray...Amen.

       

     

No Room for Doubt

  God never ceases to amaze me...

    There have been days that I've felt overwhelmed by the release of the things that I have thought to be so precious...that I have counted as super important in my life. I have felt overwhelmed by the great changes occurring around me. There are days that tears fall uncontrollably. But...Do you know what is amazing? All of these changes...they are molding me....and my family. We are being transformed. Although we face adversity...God is there...He is here. He defends us. He brings us joy unspeakable inside our hearts.
  We are comforted.
    I am amazed. God has hand-picked and sent people our way to bless us. I'm not sure they are even aware. This is what I mean:We are selling our treasures...we are giving up our precious family pets...BUT God has sent the most precious people to care for them. Each family has been such an encouragement to our lives. I am so overwhelmed by His love. Our paths have crossed for a greater purpose.

Raleigh @ his new home w/his new bffs.

Luna & Lynka were able to be taken home together. YAY! Look how happy they are:)

   So...all I can say is...I can see God in all of this...and in the people He has sent our way...even those who have bought items from us.

  You see...we are pouring ourselves out...only to be filled by His love. The only possible way to love others the way He loves us...

What if we all walked around representing God's love....

 
 
 

THE CALL

I figure I better go ahead and blog the news.

  Both Josh and I have been praying for the same thing...without the other knowing. We asked God to show us what our main purpose was...what He wanted for our lives.
   Keep up with me here...
   Most of my life, I've felt that I was suppose to go to Africa. As a youth, I felt pulled towards youth and missions. I had no idea that it would all be on purpose...In fact, about 3 weeks ago I was riding in my car, contemplating...talking to God about why I kept on holding on the the thought of Africa.
   God is so cool.
   Josh had been thinking the exact same thoughts as me...whoa right:) Yeah, we are one:) He had no idea what I'd been praying about...or the thoughts I'd been thinking...or the pull on my heart. I mentioned to him how I wanted to help children overseas in places like India, Africa, Asia, etc...He responded with, " Let's go! I'm ready!" I didn't expect that...I sat on the couch and tears began to stream down my face. I thought, " Am I willing to give up everything to help the helpless?" I felt very humbled. The thought of giving up my precious cats ( I am aware some do not understand, but think of something very precious to you) made me want to shout, "NO!" I thought of how Jesus was such a great sacrifice...
   Overnight, God transformed my heart even more. He said, " You were made for this."  I could actually feel the Potter (God) molding me. He was pressing me down into a puddle of clay-what seems like a mess. I felt like my heart was being melted down. Now, He is molding me into what I am to become. WOW! HA!
   Josh and I already love each other, but I can see how God has instantly strengthened us even more. Super cool! We look back on our lives, and we can see how everything was planned perfectly to prepare us for such a time as this...-every dream...every vision...every prophetic word spoken over our lives both together and individually throughout our lives...EVERYTHING lines up...
   We have never been in such strong agreement on one thing...We have never felt so strongly..
SO WHAT NOW:
  We are in preparation. We are selling pretty much everything. There are things we are selling now..and things we will sell closer to time to leave...(I'll get to that) Our house is for sale, too. We do not plan to quit our jobs or sell our vehicles until right before we leave.
  WHERE WHAAA?
   First, we 3 will attend a mission school in Mozambique(AFRICA). The school will last approximately 3 months.  Afterwards, we will then go into long-term missions. We will be assigned, and transfer from Mozambique to wherever God sends. This is our lifes' mission.
   WHEN?
   We aren't exactly sure...could be this year or next year. Whenever God has everything in order, we will go.
I am going to start a newsletter. If you are interested, shoot me your mailing address:)
    I will try my best to keep everybody updated.
Feel free to pray for us:) AND Please, PRAY FOR OUR FAMILIES.
We love you all.

Sacrifice

    There is something stirring in mine and Josh's souls. I can't wait to share with you all. I will say that we are purposely paying off all of our debt...all of it. This includes our home. In order for us to move forward with what God has planned for our lives, this is necessary. We are not completely ready to reveal all details, but I will post about it soon.

    I am currently going to the gym. It's time for me to get serious about getting fit.
    We will be finding new homes for our beloved pets. I am very very sad about giving up my sweet furry kids. It is a must that I find them the right homes...I need people who will love and cherish them. I have 2 cats...fairly young about 1-2 years old, and a kitten who was born Sept 9. These babies must be inside only pets, and treated with respect and love. I do not like declawing.
   Also, we have 2 beautiful dogs. They MUST go to homes that understand their breeds. (Siberian Husky and a Malamute/Shepherd) They were both rescues, and we want to keep them safe. They require an at least 5ft-6ft fenced in area...the fence cannot be chain link...they climb...and remember jump...once they are out...good luck catching them. In Summer, they require a pool and plenty shade. They cannot be with small pets. The big boy cannot be with other male pets and must be acclimated to other animals. All of these pets are great with children.
   I will also be selling my fish tanks. I have a 55 gallon with stand and cover, 29 gallon with stand and cover, and a smaller 10 gallon alone.
  Giving up all of these things is very hard for me and my family. I have cried quite a lot, and am sure it will continue. They are not all sad tears. I am overwhelmed.

There is a greater commission on our lives.

Love is Sacrifice...
1 Corinthians 13

Close your eyes the first time you listen(so you can really listen). Listen to it a second time with eyes open:)

REAL STUFF

I am so excited about my latest blood work. I got my B12 retested...999. In the past, my blood work has been wacko. Now, everything is normal! WHAT! yes!!! normal B12 levels are 200-1100pg/mL...mine is 999pg/mL. WHAAAA! I'm so excited. No wonder I feel so good:)!
I've been taking Cellgevity for about 3weeks. I feel so ...normal. Tomorrow on Dr. Oz , they'll be talking about Glutathione. YOU NEED TO WATCH. If you are alive, you need to be taking Cellgevity. I am not trying to sell anybody on it...I believe it works. I love the Max company. I was honored enough to meet Mr. Scott and find out the heart of the company. Dr. Nagasawa is super gifted. He developed a technology that works. Ribocene. If you want to ask me about it, gillnurse@hotmail.com. I don't mind you contacting me at all. There are a couple other products I love as well. ATP and MaxFuze. I am not a pill popper..I have to know the science of how things work. I can explain this...which means...it's legit. Not some kind of get rich quick money grabbing thing...it's something I believe in..Cellgevity will change your life. LIVE

okay. I have to go off and run errands and all...:) hehe

BOOYA!!!

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Blabbing About Stuff

Does anybody else have so many medical bills that they in turn cause confusion? Yeah. They cause you to pay double on one bill and none on another...or perhaps you just forget one all together...and when you sit down to sort them...you have to pray first and during and after in order to stop your head from exploding.
I was just wondering.

I am thankful for doctors and nurses...and those who sleep odd hours of the night to help those in need of medical attention. I am at the point however that I do not trust the system. I don't want to get everybody all crazy-eyed so don't get all mad and puffed up. Cause I ain't...*pause...blinking*hahaha! I am simply stating that it is mostly about the money for the big wig companies and etc...mmhmm. But ya know what...God healed me completely of Celiac Disease and didn't charge me a dime! *giggling* I get excited about it every time! I mean I can eat dumplings and toast and cake and cookies...and soy sauce...and you name it buddy:) Now, I do like my supplements...I'm not gonna tell a lie. They good to my Gills.

Sooooo... I got burnt at beach while kayaking in the sea...and...it...was...so...sore for a few days. It's pretty much healed on up now. I went back to the ol' gym...it missed me. ahhhhh:) When I got done I realized..."ewe" (what is this) I had these little bubbles on my arms and back where I was burnt. Apparently:when you work out and sweat it up following sunburn, sweat gets trapped between the healthy new skin and the damaged skin. It's not painful at all. You can rub them with slight pressure, and they will burst. OR you can just wait and they will peel. NIIIIIICE right? HA! Well, I'm peeling. I went back today...and it happened again. I'm like a creature from Dr. Who. Except I'm not. One thing is for sure: I'm happy I'm not peeling and having blotchy skin. I've put on a lot of aloe and lotion to keep my skin moisturized. Soooo...yeeeahh.


Yesterday, I switched all my tanks around. I had to move Miss Charlie, the turtle, to my 55 gallon tank. I divided my Cichlids and put them in my other 2 tanks.
Here is how I did it...I know you are excited...OH JOY:)! eeek!
First, I cleaned out my smallest tank and filled it back up with clean H20, being sure I de-chlorinated the water. I rearranged the tank:taking out and putting in..etc. Second, I suctioned out about 75% of the water out of the 55gal tank. I took each Cichlid out (all 3) and put them in separate containers. I put one container in the lil tank for a while and released that fish after the water temps equalized. ARE YOU EXCITED YET! Third, uhhh...I then I took Charlie out of my 29gal tank and put her in a box...being sure she had some water to bask in....and continued to clean that tank completely. Next, I cleaned out the 55 gal tank for Charlie. I had to get ALL the lil rocks out and put them in the 29 gal tank...in went the 2 Cichlids...bloop. I need to add this....one of the African Cichlids is a lively one...it leaped behind the fish tank...it had been traumatized and possibly injured. I don't know if it will make it or not....maybe so. I filled up Charlie's tank with a water hose...yep...and then turned on a light to heat the tank up..and then and then and then and then  in went Charlie.
Now, I know that was so exciting, and you are wide awake smiling. Yes!

You know what else about me....I have 3 pairs of tennis shoes(workout shoes), yet I continue to wear the oldest ones. hmmm. Nike 5.0=my favorites

OHOH LUNA! I took big baby Luna to the vet today. He weighed 110lbs. The Vet said Luna was doing very well. I was so proud of him for being a good boy. He was a lil scared, but it caused him to behave. He walked sooo good on his harness:) When we got home, Natalie and I tried several ways to get him out of the car. He would not budge. He was frozen in fear...scared to jump down. I pulled and she pushed. <----didn't work. So I moved around to the other side of the car (his backside) and pulled his back legs down onto the ground. He came on out...sweet boy.

OH OH yeah. I broke a guitar string today...gotta get new ones ASAP! AHHHHHHH!!!!!

ok. I reckon that's it for now.

Good night Good day

Do one thing for me...and smile:) thanks:) 

Amazing

   The wind of change has been sweeping through..and quite frankly...I don't mind it a bit. Wouldn't it be boring if nothing ever changed.

   Last week was a busy one for meh. My schedule was different than normal...no surprise. Wednesday and Thursday we had a conference with David Hogan at our church. Lives were changed! It was an awesome joyous time.  I would like to share some things in that may blow your mind, but that's the fun part.:)

 Genia arrived at church with her little boy, Brody. They got out of the car, and she told him they were at church. Brody, who is a toddler, pointed to the roof top and said, "There's Jesus up there."  She was blown away by what he saw...God is so awesome. Children see more than we do...they really have, "faith like a child." No doubts. No fears. Pure faith.

God does some amazing things. We just have to open our eyes so we can see.

I had the honor to lead worship for a women's retreat at St. George Island. It was wonderfully refreshing. We were all getting ready to leave. A sweet lady, Janice, told me her doctor said she'd have to use eye drops for the rest of her life. Her tear ducts no longer worked. She said that during worship she started to cry and tears began to roll down her face. Tear ducts healed! 

Isn't God Amazing:)

MEOW

I never thought I'd be a crazy cat lady...well...maybe I had some inclination I would be but.. When I sat down on the couch after being gone all day, my Jag (cat/son) sat in my lap and just love love loved on me. I started to think....He's not use to being home alone several days in a row-I'm gonna be gone Mon-Thursday...then gone all day and night fri-sun morning...oh dear. This may seem absurd to some, and as you may already know...I don't care. I have already cried over it. I am feeling sad about it. My husband will be home to accompany him on the days I am absent, but it's not the same. I love my lil' man. I'm gonna miss him.

Big Hearts

    I felt a little sleepy this afternoon, and decided hmmm perhaps a little tea. While I was making it...mmm...my Aunt Susan called. We had a nice chat...catching ourselves up on...ourselves:) We always have a good time:) She is the pretty lady in the center of this picture. When I was a kid, I use to stay with her and/or my granny a good bit. Harold Jr. is her son(not pictured obviously)We use played all the time. He's like a lil brother to me. He's a pretty special young man.  One of my other cousins is also in this picture. The tallest young lady in the black on the right. She's my Sam I am....Samantha. She's the baby of us cousins. I guess I'm a big time family girl 'cause I feel like my whole family is special. I mean extraordinary. Big hearts and determination...stubborn...but we stand firm...Compassionate and Passionate. You see how this applies...I mean...look at the lady in the scrubs...Tammy. She goes beyond. Wow! What a heart:) Look at the little ones...God only knows what great things they will do. Yeah Yeah Yeah. I am on a tangent...a good one. I feel so blessed.

Here's a video for your enjoyment. A brother of mine in Christ, Jacob Poole, singing with some talented folk. If you've got a Youtube account, be sure to like and comment.

Don't forget to visit my page as well. http://www.youtube.com/gillnurse