The last baby is gone...my Jag. If I talk about it or even say his lil name I swell with tears. I love him so much. I know he is with a very loving sweet person which really does give me a bit of peace. Sacrifice...it isn't easy...nor is it suppose to be really...or else it wouldn't be a sacrifice at all. All I can do is ask that God fill that little precious spot.
Here he is at his new home...on his new bed:) I want to grab him up so bad...but such a precious person has been chosen to care for him. I know why I met her now. Amazing.
Months from now, I will hold precious orphans, widows, broken and those in deep poverty in which I have never experienced or seen face to face...they will be before me...and I will use the love of God to love them deeply. Some people don't know they are loved. Now...that is sad.
Years from now, I will see what God has planned. All of His promises are real.
I have been asked several time, "What if you are miserable?" I could answer in several ways.
First, there may be days that I feel not so top notch...but I could feel that way anywhere. Ya know what else...God gave me a husband...and we lift each other up:) Second, how could I be more miserable than the ones we are going to.... Third, it's surreal to know that you know..."this is what you were made for"...Another and the biggest to me...is FAITH.
You never really know what or who your faith is in until it is tested...
for example:If your father has several heart attacks and has died...and God restored His life to where you are able to call him and talk with him...and hug him. OR Your marriage has failed. Your family is broken. You cry at night of loneliness and plea to God for answers...Out of the darkness appears light...and brilliantly your marriage and family is restored to a point beyond what you would have ever thought it would be...your marriage is unbreakable and your family is whole. OR You were diagnosed with two autoimmune disorders and another condition that would surely take away the good quality of life you've been living or even will take your life. BUT you decided that you were not defeated and had faith in the promises of God and were completely healed...now you don't worry anymore about watching your child grow up...
You see all of the above: those situations were me. Faith in the Word...in the promises of God...believing and knowing with all that I am that He is the King of EVERYTHING! WHOOOOOOOHOOOOO! I serve a MIGHTY GOD! Nothing makes me want to dance more than this...:)
Dear Heavenly Father...most precious of all...
Take my heart and seal it for Thy courts above. Pour into me and fill every crevice with You. I want a relationship with You like no other. Take away the pain of whoever may be reading this and need You more. Fill them with Your precious love that is like no other. Let them feel Your presence. Breathe life. Let Your Holy Spirit surround the broken and ashamed as this prayer is read and prayed. Take us all to where You desire us to be. May we not hesitate to surrender to Your perfect will for our lives. May we walk by faith. I love You, God, more than anything. Above all You reign. You amaze me. You, Father, are a perfect Father.
Thank You for hearing me...for hearing us...in the precious name of Your great sacrifice, Jesus, I pray...we pray...Amen.
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